I have confessions to make. Do you?
Sometimes (every single time) … when Josh goes out to sea … I feel …
Yes, I miss him. Yes, I’m sad. But mostly … I’m relieved.
Our normal schedule can get a little crazy (three kids in three different schools, after-school activities, playdates, FRG, COMPASS, and … ya know …feeding the family and cleaning and stuff). When you toss in a pre-deployment schedule (never knowing when he’s coming home, shopping for enough crap for three months, making halfway boxes, calendar squares, honey grams, holiday packages, writing everyday letters, checklists, ID’s, etc.), things get hectic to say the least.
Once he actually leaves the pre-deployment stress is gone. Of course then I take on the doing-it-all-by-myself stress, but just for a moment, for a few blissful days, I sit back and relax. Ahhh, sweet sweet relief …
So00 … anyone else want to make a confession? You can post them in the comments or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org!
***The COMPASS Mentor in me couldn’t end this post without saying feeling sad, lonely, angry, or relieved are all perfectly normal when a spouse deploys! Feel your emotions; just don’t let them get the better of you and your marriage. For more information about the Cycle of Deployment, click here for a pretty decent explanation!***