Deployment, navy spouse

Navy Wife Confessions

I have confessions to make. Do you?

Sometimes (every single time) … when Josh goes out to sea … I feel …

Relieved.

Yes, I miss him. Yes, I’m sad. But mostly … I’m relieved.

Our normal schedule can get a little crazy (three kids in three different schools, after-school activities, playdates, FRG, COMPASS, and … ya know …feeding the family and cleaning and stuff). When you toss in a pre-deployment schedule (never knowing when he’s coming home, shopping for enough crap for three months, making halfway boxes, calendar squares, honey grams, holiday packages, writing everyday letters, checklists, ID’s, etc.), things get hectic to say the least.

Once he actually leaves the pre-deployment stress is gone. Of course then I take on the doing-it-all-by-myself stress, but just for a moment, for a few blissful days, I sit back and relax. Ahhh, sweet sweet relief …

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“Take a picture of our sleeping faces, Mommy!” (Ignore my double chin … the camera added ten pounds … to my neck …)

So00 … anyone else want to make a confession? You can post them in the comments or email me at jodi@backonland.com!

***The COMPASS Mentor in me couldn’t end this post without saying feeling sad, lonely, angry, or relieved are all perfectly normal when a spouse deploys! Feel your emotions; just don’t let them get the better of you and your marriage. For more information about the Cycle of Deployment, click here for a pretty decent explanation!***

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12 thoughts on “Navy Wife Confessions”

  1. I enjoy only having to clean up after myself and be able to watch what I want without my husband mocking me ( I like reality TV ). Deployment has perks lol

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  2. My confession? I like when I’m home alone. After being single for 9 years then remarrying (the man of my dreams with a sweet, sweeet daughter), I still like to have my time alone.

    With the TV.

    Or with the computer.

    Or with some silence. Or some rocky road ice cream. Or some macaroni and cheese made the way “I” like it.

    Don’t tell anyone.

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  3. I hated all the stress leading up to them leaving and always felt better once they pulled out. I enjoyed the first few weeks and was always ready to have him home again when he returned:)

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  4. I can totally relate with the “relieved” feeling when they leave. I’m relieved I’m not long counting down and stressing about him leaving. That I’m finally counting down to him returning. But the stress level without him far exceeds that and I want him back. NOW, lol.

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    1. I think my stress level goes uuupppp and doooownwwwnnn depending on how long he’s been gone and how long til he gets home. 🙂 I do agree about the NOW part!

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  5. I go through a entire range of emotions I go from depressed about being alone especially because I will have no help or relief with our brand new baby girl. Then there is being scared, once again of being alone and the fact that if I never showed up at home one night no one would even know about it. Then I can relate with the relief that he is really gone. The yo-yo of we’re leaving today, oh now we’re leaving tomorrow, just kidding its next week effect drives me crazy ( just go already so I can start adjusting to you being gone). Some days I get excited because I get to create this adorable home coming outfit for our daughter. I’m sure we all get excited for finally having some sweet woopy, sorry I had to go there this is a confession after all isn’t it. Some days I stress about my image. I wonder, holy crap he is going to come home with the vision of me looking like a perfect 20-something year old! Little does he know that this entire time he has been gone I have been eating frozen pizza for dinner and reese’s peanut butter cups for breakfast. I do have to admit though the day that they do actually come home is one of the more TERRIFYING days ever. I literally make myself sick with my emotions and thoughts. Waiting for him to come off of that bus is the scariest most exciting thing. In my head I’m thinking what if I don’t recognize him because holy crap they all look alike (pale, skinny, and to make it harder they all wear the same NWUs). I also think does this outfit look nice enough I am and always will be a jeans and I tee shirt girl and some of the other wives look so beautiful with their pretty dresses and high heels, I sadly compare myself to them and instantly feel bad that my husband doesn’t have a fancy wife. Call me crazy but its like I want to poop my pants and jump up and down all at the same time. As you can see I go through a huge range of emotion. Oh don’t you just love the life of a navy wife, honestly I wouldn’t change it for the world. I’m a big believer in distance makes the heart grow fonder!

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    1. I just love you!!! This is what WE ALL go through! Every emotion, every feeling, every doubt and insecurity! The only bad part is that most don’t know just how NORMAL it is to feel so CRAZY!!! Just remember, your husband didn’t marry “some fancy girl” … he married YOU!!! He’s going to be sooo excited to see you and your new baby girl he won’t even notice what you’re wearing!

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